argh, skools just around the cornner, gona die.....i got the worst home room teacher ever, and she has a stupid name to "ms. mcmanus" honestly, i want to call her ms anus so badly, but thens there arnt really any good teachers here anynmore at my skool, the best one left, and every other teacher sux, a lot. im dreading just the thought of skool already, argh i wanted to go see snakes on a plane with my friends on saturday, but its rated R!!!!!!!!! damn, i hate being 13. i wanted to see that movie so friggen badly, buh then my bro told me it was rated R. goshes, now i dunno what movie to watch. any suggestions on a good movie????its like almost 3:00 in the morning and i cant sleep, ugh, i have to wake up at nine 2morrow, to go fishing, i guss ill just sleep my way off in the car lol. theres sumthing rong with me, i cant get to sleep and then in 2 in the morning i get hungry...i had to go down stairs and get some chicken strips to eat!!!!! well that might be cuz, i ussualy eat my own dinner without my family  at 1 in the moring lol. ive been waking up at the 2 in the afternoon these past days, slaking off at my most be4 skool starts lol i i know most ppl probly didnt understand a word that i just said cuz it was all confuzziling, buh o well 2 bad lol byes!!!!
Muches lovesss
Fall uphill

Ive never found a way to vent besides writing, i just decided to post this since i was browsing from my journal, and i found all this stuff i wrote bout what happend a while ago, i dunno, its not really meant to be anything poetic or anything buh fer sum reason, everything in my journal just end out like that

I get to school eyes swollen and red
my shirt filled with tears
Comming off the school bus, and saying hi to me
i try to smile but i cant
instead i end up crying
giving me a hug and asking me what happend
i tell you everything that happend last night
The sound of the hand hitting my face
glass falling to the floor
doors slamming shut
music blasting from the stero in my room
getting to the school yard
everyone asks
why my face is tear soaked
i decide not to tell them
not a word is spoken
and i walk away
the lunch bell rings
i leave without a trace
running to the school hill
lying on the grass
wtih headphones blasting to drown every noise out
closing my eyes as a tear falls on the ground
Somone finds me
brings me to the washroom to wash my face off
a scared girl hiding everything possible inside
the next day almost everything is forgotten
but not me
i remember everything
crystal clear
and i always will
just like the other times
from just only months ago
but like this memory
i rember all of them crystal clear

yea i noe...rly..umm..detailed i guess...it was from a while ago, and i just felt like posting fer some reason dunno, not like letting ppl noe about my situation really helped that time...just made it worse...

well my birthday was like the flippin best ever lol, and im still dreading over how im totally cursed lol, one guys couldnt come to my party cuz his brother got a concussion and had to go to the hospital, and another couldnt come cuz he was sick!!!!!!!!! lol, im so cursed, wen i called the guy's home, his mom picked up, she didnt explain it that clearly the first time, so i though he got the concussion instead of his brother lol, freaked me out, i think im not gona follow up to the story i wrote lol, it suxs to much hehe, but seriosly, it does, soooo yea..not much else to say...bye byes!!!!

lifes has been boring hell...theirs nothing to effin do at home...well besides staring blankly at the tv.. i cant beilive you actually like my crappy story lol. never trust party packagers and their silly string...it dosent work...trust me, im getting a refund, lol, hmm...well..not really much to say, just wanted to post this cuz im so bored hehe, well...tootles :P

title: Amour affairs 1
pairings: ryan/brendon well maybe jon and spencer later on i dunno
POV: Ryan only for now
Rating: PG 13 for swearing only
Summary: Damn she was hot, now i really want this job!
Disclaimer: Dont own anything cept the idea!!
Authors Notes: I dunno, i just suddenly though of this after i orderd my birthday cake lol. Its really random lol, so its about brendon being this really big cake chef (haha yea i know) and ryan needs a job, he decides to go to Fromage Amour (haha yea i decided to name the resturant that lol) and well...yeah, it might take me a while to update since Im gona have alot of sutff to do after today so yea, this chapters pretty short to, sorry
Dedication: Lol this is for xhidexdetailsx and veggiex lol since they asked me to write a story lol trust me its gona suck lol

Ryan's POV
Argh, I'm so tired of being fired!!!!! That was my second job this month!!!!! My parents are going to kill me!!! I looked at the name tag that was still in my hand, with fear and anger burning in my eyes. Fear for what my parents where going to do, and anger for what my so called "fellow employes" did to me.

Ever since i was young, Ive been pushed around like i was worthless, but i never thought that it would come to this day where i would still be pushed around when i was 19. I kept on walking untill a sign caught the cornner of my eye

Help wanted

bingo!!! If i can get this job then i dont have to tell my parents, maybe i will earn more money from this job too!

I ran inside, but only to find, a bunch of people lineing up, I dont if they were liniing up for the job, or just plainly lining up for some..cake i think, i think thats what this store was selling... well what else was I supoed to do, but line up... ..i better get something good from this...


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After a total of i think about i dunno half an hour, it was finnally my turn,

"Hello! and what can I do for you today?" A young girl that seemed about my age was at the counter, damn she was hot, now i really want this job, i want to see her everyday!

"Umm do you know where i can get an application form, im in need of a job and i noticed the sign out side and..." I was cut off by her and she handed me a form

" Please fill out this form, you dont have to line up again, just wait their at teh edge of the counter and some one will attend to you" She smiled with her bright white teeth, and i walked off to finsih the form.

After i finished with the form i waited at the edge of the counter just like the girl told me to. A guy was there, he looked a bit older than me, but not to much, he was wearing a chef hat and, well just the whole sha-bang. He actually looked kinda good... wait wait!! EWWWW!!! aggg!!! IM STRAIGHT!!!!!! ahhh!!! ok ok, breath, breath, breath, ok now talk! wait, why am i getting so nervous?? o shit.

"Alright, so you want to become an employe huh? ok you can leave now, i will call you tomorrow, to let you know what is going to happen, by the way, my name is brendon, brendon urie"

"Umm, yea, my name is ryan ross"

He smiled and i left.

I dont no, theirs just somthing about him... something diffrent..

hehe, i decided to get an ice cream cake from baskin robins this year, i had so much trouble picking a flavour lol, i finnally decided on rainbow sherbert lol, its gona be purple!!!!! lol, i like random colors, the blue was rly ugly, lol. i honestly think my friends are trying to murder me lol, im gona murder them back again lol, a little sumtin called...a silly string attack lol. well, tootles!!
I like cheese!!

om goshes im so bored lol,GUESS WHAT!?!?!?!?! ITS MY BIRTHDAY ON FRIDAY!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i think my friends are trying to murder me lol, they told me they got all this p!atd stuff for me, buh they wont tell me what it is lol, me is turning 13, but me is feeling 5 hehe, okay i just had to yell that out, lol BYES!!!

sooo, hello ppls, ashley made me post this :P so yea...i rly dunno what im doin right now lol, kk byes, hehe